"To maintain sensibility is the greatest effort required. To slip would be so easy. It would be accomplished with little effort. Yet to maintain is necessary in order to benefit from the future. Of what benefit? Will benefit be derived from the future? To burden others with your problems---are they problems---is not right. However, to carry them is akin to carrying a fused bomb. I wonder if the fuse can be doused. If it is doused, what will be gained? Will the gain be worth the effort put forth? But should one who considers himself so strong surrender to enemies so trivial and despicable?" "I just despise my father. I hate him. If my father walked through that door, I'd kill him." "It was after much thought that I decided to kill my wife, Kathy, tonight after I pick her up from work at the telephone company. I love her dearly, and she has been as fine a wife to me as any man could ever hope to have. I cannot rationally pinpoint any specific reason for doing this. I don't know whether it is selfishness, or if I don't want her to face the embarrassment my actions would surely cause her. At this time, though, the prominent reason in my mind is that I truly do not consider this world worth living in, and am prepared to die, and I do not want to leave her to suffer alone in it. I intend to kill her as painlessly as possible." "I have just taken my mother's life. I am very upset over having done it. However, I feel that if there is a heaven she is definitely there now. And if there is no life after, I have relieved her of her suffering here on earth. The intense hatred I feel for my father is beyond description. My mother gave that man the best 25 years of her life and because she finally took enough of his beatings, humiliation, degradation, and tribulations that I am sure no one but she will ever know---to leave him. He has chosen to treat her like a slut that you would bed down with, accept her favors, and then throw a pittance in return. I am truly sorry that this is the only way I could see to relieve her suffering but I think it was best. Let there be no doubt that I loved the woman with all my heart. If there exists a God, let him understand my actions and judge me accordingly." "If my life insurance policy is valid please see that all the worthless checks I wrote this weekend are made good. Please pay off all my debts. I am 25 years old and have never been financially independent. Donate the rest anonymously to a mental health foundation. Maybe research can prevent further tragedies of this type. Give our dog to my in-laws please. Tell them Kathy loved 'Schocie' (the dog) very much." "I never could quite make it. These thoughts are too much for me."------Charles Whitman